And so it begins.

Well, I just got back from camping this weekend. It was okay, just not stellar. And not blog-worthy, either. Some high points, some low points. And some sub-earth level points. Now I'm unpacking and getting all my school stuff ready. And next weekend, I'm going to go camping again. I'm actually excited for school to start. I like routine, and though it's nice to have a break, I just wan to go back.

Current Music: "So What" - Pink
Current Mood: tired/excited

Yeah, yeah...I got my first ticket.

So...I'm just going to say it like it is. Today, I was going to work. The road I normally take to work was being re-paved or something, but I've seen people go through it, despite the "ROAD CLOSED" signs and barricades. The barricades were positioned so that cars could get through (why, I don't know), anyway. So, I go through, thinking it was no big deal. After all, everybody else was doing it, too.

I get to the light at the end of the road, and it was red. So I'm sitting there, and a cop car pulls up behind me really suddenly and turns his flashers on. I'm thinking "shitshitshit!!!" So I put it in park, and sat there, waiting for the guy to come out. He comes to my window, and asks for my ID and registration/insurance. Apparently, it's still illegal to go through a "ROAD CLOSED" road, even though everybody else was going through it without trouble. He takes my ID and shit, and says "okay, I'll be right back with your ticket!" Like it's a frickin' prize or something. Grr. He comes back out with the ticket, and gives my stuff back. Any questions? he says. No, yadda yadda, whatever. Okay, have a nice day! I know, technically, I shouldn't have done it. But the thing is, while he was talking to me and writing my ticket, tons of cars went by him, and obviously came through the road closed sign.

I told my parents after I got home from work, and they were understanding about it. So, I'm going to call the number on the ticket tomorrow, and either find out how much I owe and pay it, or go to court and settle it.

I haven't posted in this in a while...sorry.

Yeah....sorry about my length of absence from Blogger.  I'm at work right now, so I've got to make it quick.  Again, I'm going to use the bullet style for when I'm in a hurry.

~Tony might join tech. Oh boy...*think of him, Robert and James together using power tools.* lol
~New myspace layout/about me survey.  Check it out at www.myspace.com/iamseanf
~I'm still obsessed with Edward Cullen.  And the next book comes out while we're at band camp... >:(
~I filled my car up completely with gas today.  Only took me $52, but it was cheap! lol
~Going to Ohio Friday/Saturday, and band camp Monday-Saturday.

Current Music: "Thunder" - Boys Like Girls
Current Mood: rockin' 

I has no electrics.

Well, that's not totally true. I do have a generator hooked up to my house, but that'll only last while I have gas to feed it. So when the gas is gone, so is the energy. Bummer.

I got into work at 3:45, no big deal. At about 5:00, I was told that almost everybody in Grand Ledge had no power. And guess what entire group of people came to our McD's 'cause we had power? Yep, Grand Ledge. I was totally not able to rest until about 6:45, and even then, there was still a mild amount of business. I was scrambling; putting meat down, picking it up, making menu items, doing whatever else we didn't have enough people for, and so on. This went on for quite a while.

I've got to go now - and get some sleep for tomorrow, because my brother goes off to a 1 week summer camp tomorrow morning. I'm so happy...lol

Current Music: "Lollipop" - Lil' Wayne
Current Mood: tired, excited

My McD schedule

In case anybody wants to pop their head into McShell and say hi to me while I'm working.

6/8 - 3:45pm-8:00pm
6/10 - 4:00pm-7:00pm
6/11 - 3:00pm-8:00pm
6/12 - 6:15pm-9:00pm
6/13 - 3:00pm-5:45pm

I love this weather.

Current Music: "Time Of My Life" - David Cook
Current Mood: awake 'cause of the storm

What time is it? SUMMERTIME!

I'm going to start off with the matter most important right now. You all know that ugly noise and smell that my tire was making? Well, my dad took the car to Goodyear and apparently, a bolt had fallen out of the lower control arm, making the wheel slide back and forth. It officially was not my fault! He left it there overnight, so my mom's gonna have to transport me to the SAT test tomorrow at the High School. He also says that it's gonna be cheap - much cheaper than going to Graff Chevy (where we normally take it (but it's not really safe on the highway)) or any other place. Bottom line: my car's going to be just fine.

Yeah...I've got to study this 800 page book for the SAT test tomorrow...it really sucks. Granted, I could've started studying before this, but, being the procrastinator that I am, totally forgot about it and now it's tomorrow at 8:00 am. So this isn't going to be a terribly long update...but since it's summer now, the updates should come more frequently.

And today is officially the first day of summer vacation. And it's a good....92 degrees outside. Wonderful. This coming Monday, my brother goes off to Camp Ebersole (nature camp somewhere other than Lansing), and he'll be gone all week. Then during the week, I can enjoy all the peace and quiet that he normally disturbs. And work, too. Although McD's isn't quiet at all. (Another side note-I didn't get the job at the admin building that I was hoping for...oh well. Stuff happens.)

Current Music: "Four Minutes" - Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake
Current Mood: sweaty, hot, tired

Happiness is merely a myth.

I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm just going through life like a zombie, just living the actions. I try to be happy on the outside (school, work, etc) but when I get home, I just fall apart {to myself}. I put on the mask through the day, to show everybody that I seem okay, when inside, I'm hurting. Hurting for all the times I've fucked up (my fault or otherwise). I've given my trust out to people, and all the time, I've either messed it up or somebody else has. It's shown me one thing, though:

you can never really trust anyone.

It's just impossible. For me, at least.

Consequently, I trust fewer people each time. Actually, I trust noone right now. You'd have to work extremely hard to gain my trust, and even after that, you wouldn't have all of it. There are some things that I just couldn't tell anyone. I won't go to a therapist because I don't trust people (especially ones I don't know). I used to have one; I told her what she wanted to hear. And don't even get me started on relationships...they just don't seem to work for me. I've had very few real relationships, and I can see why. Who in their right mind would want to go out with a person like me? I've got nothing positive to give (or so it seems). Nothing to make people happy. And I've certainly hurt people to reap the benefits for myself. Now, who'd want to be with somebody like that? I sure wouldn't. Perhaps it'd just be best if I left society alone. I see no facet in which I serve a purpose, so why not? Nobody wants to be with me, that's understandable.

This is not a pity note, nor did I write it to come across as such. I merely penned this note to address issues of/to society.

Current Music: "Sorry" - Buckcherry
Current Mood: depressed

I just wanna be loved..

I've got about 660 pics/videos from the DC band trip, so if anyone wants a copy, let me know.

I really want someone to be there for me (like a boyfriend). Just someone to have a good relationship with.

I'm going to be studying for finals tonight. I'm most likely going to be on AIM all the time, so chat with me.

Yep, this is one of those short updates again...damn. Sorry, folks.

Current Music: "I Just Wanna Be Loved" - Papa Roach
Current Mood: lonely & depressed

Short, cryptic update. Deal with it.

Finished shift at McD's half an hour ago. Super tired.

Procrastinating on the DC update. Maybe tomorrow.

I'm finally feeling like I've got a hold on life right now. It probably won't last long.

Preliminary estimate for my car's alignment problem is $69.99 at Graff Chevrolet. Currently saving my paychecks.

I'm in a really shitty mood. Sorry in advance.

I fell asleep in World Lit today.

I'm flying by the seat of my pants, for the time being.

Current Music: "Friday Night" - Todd Carey
Current Mood: tired, pissed off

So I'm in DC right now,

Updating from my laptop using the hotel wifi. Sweeet. I'm going to make a huge update when I get home (cause I'm certainly not going to go to school on Tuesday!), so I won't post as much as I normally do here. So far, we've been to the Smithsonian museums (all of 'em), the memorials, the Washington Monument, and some other assorted stuff that I forgot. So, this is probably going to be it for the update; I just wanted to say that I blogged in Washington, DC. Stay classy, San Diego.