I has no electrics.

Well, that's not totally true. I do have a generator hooked up to my house, but that'll only last while I have gas to feed it. So when the gas is gone, so is the energy. Bummer.

I got into work at 3:45, no big deal. At about 5:00, I was told that almost everybody in Grand Ledge had no power. And guess what entire group of people came to our McD's 'cause we had power? Yep, Grand Ledge. I was totally not able to rest until about 6:45, and even then, there was still a mild amount of business. I was scrambling; putting meat down, picking it up, making menu items, doing whatever else we didn't have enough people for, and so on. This went on for quite a while.

I've got to go now - and get some sleep for tomorrow, because my brother goes off to a 1 week summer camp tomorrow morning. I'm so happy...lol

Current Music: "Lollipop" - Lil' Wayne
Current Mood: tired, excited

My McD schedule

In case anybody wants to pop their head into McShell and say hi to me while I'm working.

6/8 - 3:45pm-8:00pm
6/10 - 4:00pm-7:00pm
6/11 - 3:00pm-8:00pm
6/12 - 6:15pm-9:00pm
6/13 - 3:00pm-5:45pm

I love this weather.

Current Music: "Time Of My Life" - David Cook
Current Mood: awake 'cause of the storm

What time is it? SUMMERTIME!

I'm going to start off with the matter most important right now. You all know that ugly noise and smell that my tire was making? Well, my dad took the car to Goodyear and apparently, a bolt had fallen out of the lower control arm, making the wheel slide back and forth. It officially was not my fault! He left it there overnight, so my mom's gonna have to transport me to the SAT test tomorrow at the High School. He also says that it's gonna be cheap - much cheaper than going to Graff Chevy (where we normally take it (but it's not really safe on the highway)) or any other place. Bottom line: my car's going to be just fine.

Yeah...I've got to study this 800 page book for the SAT test tomorrow...it really sucks. Granted, I could've started studying before this, but, being the procrastinator that I am, totally forgot about it and now it's tomorrow at 8:00 am. So this isn't going to be a terribly long update...but since it's summer now, the updates should come more frequently.

And today is officially the first day of summer vacation. And it's a good....92 degrees outside. Wonderful. This coming Monday, my brother goes off to Camp Ebersole (nature camp somewhere other than Lansing), and he'll be gone all week. Then during the week, I can enjoy all the peace and quiet that he normally disturbs. And work, too. Although McD's isn't quiet at all. (Another side note-I didn't get the job at the admin building that I was hoping for...oh well. Stuff happens.)

Current Music: "Four Minutes" - Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake
Current Mood: sweaty, hot, tired

Happiness is merely a myth.

I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm just going through life like a zombie, just living the actions. I try to be happy on the outside (school, work, etc) but when I get home, I just fall apart {to myself}. I put on the mask through the day, to show everybody that I seem okay, when inside, I'm hurting. Hurting for all the times I've fucked up (my fault or otherwise). I've given my trust out to people, and all the time, I've either messed it up or somebody else has. It's shown me one thing, though:

you can never really trust anyone.

It's just impossible. For me, at least.

Consequently, I trust fewer people each time. Actually, I trust noone right now. You'd have to work extremely hard to gain my trust, and even after that, you wouldn't have all of it. There are some things that I just couldn't tell anyone. I won't go to a therapist because I don't trust people (especially ones I don't know). I used to have one; I told her what she wanted to hear. And don't even get me started on relationships...they just don't seem to work for me. I've had very few real relationships, and I can see why. Who in their right mind would want to go out with a person like me? I've got nothing positive to give (or so it seems). Nothing to make people happy. And I've certainly hurt people to reap the benefits for myself. Now, who'd want to be with somebody like that? I sure wouldn't. Perhaps it'd just be best if I left society alone. I see no facet in which I serve a purpose, so why not? Nobody wants to be with me, that's understandable.

This is not a pity note, nor did I write it to come across as such. I merely penned this note to address issues of/to society.

Current Music: "Sorry" - Buckcherry
Current Mood: depressed

I just wanna be loved..

I've got about 660 pics/videos from the DC band trip, so if anyone wants a copy, let me know.

I really want someone to be there for me (like a boyfriend). Just someone to have a good relationship with.

I'm going to be studying for finals tonight. I'm most likely going to be on AIM all the time, so chat with me.

Yep, this is one of those short updates again...damn. Sorry, folks.

Current Music: "I Just Wanna Be Loved" - Papa Roach
Current Mood: lonely & depressed